Anxiety 101

hello doctor, my name is john pual slim. im fifteen years old, im 16 pretty soon . i live in los angeles, California . im a pretty good kid, im respectful towards other , i go too school in time, get my work done. i get average grades , 3.0 gpa (i could do better i know). i have a wonderful relationship with my family and they are only aware of my anxiety issues and know i have smoked pot before, my mom caught me , someone seen me smoking , i disappointed her very much, my mom knows I'm very good kid. i told her it was my first time & i promised i wouldn't do it again . i had concept that its a all natural substance given by god, & it was not affecting me in any negative way, i was completely wrong. even wrote a couple of essays for my English class last semester and read countless articles on the postive outcomes, ignoring all the negatives, now knowing im wrong i should have. i i honestly started hanging around with the wrong crowd . marijuana in the area i live isnt considered "a big deal" . towards the end of my freshmen year i was just really curious to know what it was all about. so i smoked a couple of times with friends and got addicted without actually knowing it ..., after my few couple of times of experimenting in the month may, 2014. i started to purchase my own cannabis for myself( trust me i made sure it wasnt laced and pure cannabis, almost all my pot was from near-by marijuana dispensaries , ) i started to smoke almost everyday heavily . i didnt really stop , expect when i traveled for a week in december 2013, spring break 2014. those weeks where horrible , all i could think about was how i cant wait too get home and start smoking up , and you must be wondering where are my parents too this non-sense, well honestly i was like a ninja to when it came to getting caught , i was very, very careful in every move I did . i would go out to the park or my friends house to get stoned after school, i would smoke in the mornings not always, & practically every night in my room . with a carbon filter to blow to blow out my window , the fan pointing the window, towel on the door, eyedrops . i was very carefull, & closing my air vent. just earlier this week i started to have major anxiety attacks(ive researched so much ) . i thought smoking a diifrent strain would help but i was wrong so i came to a realization this has too stop. this is my fourth day sober, depression, lack of motivation, not much apatite , sweaty palms, racing heart, strong sweat odor, & anxiety , which is destroying my self esteem that i have now developed a life time medical condition . i believe i have too situations right now but only one its temporary and the other isn't. up too 90 days of my body detoxing its self , my brain conditioning too deal with real life situations such as insomnia, stress, & helping my achy body after 2-3 hours boxing work outs, 3-4 times a week . Anxiety of course kicks in alot during the day and is horrible . im waiting for my health care insurance to go to see my local doctor and spill everything out how constantly i had been smoking pot. i had anxiety last time ay the gym i couldnt really focus so i haven't gone, i went the ymca the other day got my work done but it wasn't the easiest thing becuase my mind is spinning with my life situation. i apologize with my grammar, topics bouncing back and fourth everywhere, i hope someones reads this. thank you very much