Rocking the Cradle between a Rock and a Hard Place
Jim LaPierre Says...
My heart goes out to you. Kudos for making the right decisions for your son then and now.
Six months is an excellent start - great job! It sounds like you need folks to get on the same page with you if you need their support financially/child care wise and their ongoing support emotionally as well. Instead of accepting "just wait another month" talk with your family and your sponsor and talk about what all parties feel needs to be accomplished for the transition to be successful. Just waiting and leaving things vaguely resolved doesn't help anything.
Try to keep at the forefront of your thoughts that the people who love you are afraid of the same thing that you are - which is that you could relapse. The difference is that you have 100% control over whether that happens and they have 0%
Talk with your sponsor about what you need to do to be ready. Work hard, pray harder and bite your tongue when folks are telling you things that are hard to hear. Listen to your gut and not your heart. Work harder. Strive. The more solid you are in recovery, the more solid a foundation you give yourself and your child. If you haven't signed over parental rights then there should be no legal way for your family to keep your child. Visit often. Did I mention work hard? This is hell but you only have to go through it once and you never have to go back. Good luck and God bless!
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