I am a crack addict I guess because I can't stop using. I thought that because I only binged on weekends I had it under control but after enough Monday mornings feeling like death and promising myself and my girlfriend who also indulges that I'd never do it again I made a serious try at actually not smoking this last weekend and by Friday midnight I was calling my dealer every five minutes demanding a meet up and then it was at home all weekend with the curtains drawn, as usual.
I can't afford rehab and I can't stop so what do I do? Should I try to cut down by buying less or by limiting my access to money on weekends in advance? Does this ever work?
Given your circumstances, it would seem like your best option is to contact Cocaine Anonymous to find out where the local meetings are. You need to work the program - attend meetings daily and get a sponsor. From what you describe, it is unlikely that you will be able to just cut down without some assistance.