Sexual abuse, rage, shame, drugs: the perfect storm
Art Matthews Says...
There is a saying in recovery circles that we are only as sick as our secrets. It's time for you to reach out for help and get this off your chest. The reaction you fear most is not likely to happen with an experienced, trained and skilled trauma therapist. Start with your medical doctor and ask for a referral to a therapist or psychologist who specializes in trauma therapy. In your case it would be best to consider someone dually licensed or experienced in addiction treatment. You have reached the end of the efficacy of your own coping, so it's time to move into a new phase and make a call. I know this will evoke fear for you as well. Feel the fear and do it anyway. There is no right or wrong way to talk about what happened to you, just get talking. Meds may seem like another way to escape feelings, and I am not a lover of Big Pharma, but taking an antidepressant could have the effect of lessening your distress enough so that you can begin to share. You don't have to be on medication forever. You control your healthcare. Meds combined with therapy has actually been shown to be more effective in treating depression than either one alone.
You have shown some trust in me by sharing in this very public way. Keep trusting and go deeper. Make that call today.
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